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Rehabilitation transforms lives. For every $1 invested in brain injury rehab, $92 is returned. So why is it still underfunded and undervalued?

Rehabilitation after brain injury is like golf on a strange course. Progress is slow, victories are small, but you keep shining, keep trying.

Discover why we forget, how memory changes after brain injury, and why remembering, not forgetting, shapes identity, resilience and growth.

More editors than psychologists.

Voted the Best Poster at the World Congress on Brain Injury in Montreal.  What a journey, halfway across the world to offer my poster to the World Congress and what a pleasure to be voted the winner. The conference itself was worth the trip and I look forward to maybe contributing more when the next event occurs in Valencia, Spain 2027. A massive thanks to the organising committee and all the fascianting, driven, passionate clinicians I met there. Bruce.

Who are you? You’re not just your name? That’s not all you are.

Explore neurodivergence, tolerance, and empathy through Brad’s circadian rhythm story at a school assembly.

From theatre chaos to flight anxiety, Bruce shares the intense challenges of brain injury before traveling to the World Congress in Montreal.

Bruce Gump shares a heartfelt reflection on living with brain injury, coping with grief, and finding small moments of hope and joy.

PTSD isn’t just a label. Discover how one doctor navigates trauma, brain injury, and the slow path to healing.

ADHD is no weakness, it’s a hidden strength. Join ADHD-Man on a fun journey that celebrates creativity and unstoppable energy.

Annabel lies silent, but her unfiltered message is clear. A story of resilience, humor, and human connection.

What happens when your “Bank of Me” runs low? A personal reflection on trauma, cognitive fatigue, and emotional burnout.

It’s hard not to dwell on the past, however much it shaped who you are or how you feel about yourself. I found this video in my archives and figured I would share it. If only to reveal how the hairstyles and shorts have changed with time.

An unexpected in-flight emergency calls Dr Powell to action. Flying Solo tells the story of skill, calm, and heroism at altitude.

The Life Project: Raising Awareness in WA

Dr Bruce Powell shares his journey from medical director to trauma patient, navigating recovery, identity, and the realities of life after a devastating accident.

A doctor’s unfiltered journey through grief, joy, and resilience in the ICU, from tears in the car park to profound patient connections.

Starting a new job is confronting and disconcerting. The day before, you knew what you were doing, you were an ‘expert’. Now that you have been promoted or recruited, ironically, you’re clueless. You will definitely figure it all out, but the first few days constitute a crisis. Medicine is especially prone to that phenomenon and the accompanying anxiety that comes with moving one-step closer to the absolute responsibility for each patient’s well-being.  The State Medical Director for Organ and Tissue Donation was a very large step indeed. High profile and politically tricky, the unique part about donation was that without our community’s engagement, belief and trust in us, there was no donation. It wasn’t ‘my’ service, nor anyone else’s at DonateLife. We were merely the facilitators of a life-saving process that had no ceiling to its budget, no limit to the number of retrievals we could potentially do, except those set by the public’s willingness to donate part of themselves, to someone that they would never meet. I witnessed my first organ retrieval as a houseman, looked after kidney transplant patients as a nephrology registrar, anaesthetised for organ retrieval and implantations and finally cared for donors and their relatives on intensive care unit. With increasing experience and fewer chance of surprises, comes a vague whiff of arrogance, even for the humblest of us. I was already an ICU Head of Department and now a whole Australian State’s solo representative on the national ‘Organ and Tissue Authority’. I was practically a God and divinity can make social engagements particularly enjoyable, since our community holds a special place of mystery and intrigue for organ donation and transplantation. “Do they take your organs before you’re dead?” took a bottle of Corona to dispel. “Has anyone ever woken up after their heart was removed” took only a mouthful of nuts to deny. Whereas “how come my relatives can overrule my decision to be a donor” could take a half bottle of wine to cover the legalities and the rationale. In fact the questioner needed the other half of the Sav Blanc to stay enthused. It had only been a few weeks but I had it pretty much covered already. Our community knew so little about donation that even the range of questions was predictable and limited. “Are you in charge of organ donation?” a lady asked as she approached me and my newly acquired sausage from the BBQ. I instinctively hoped this was the second “has ever anyone ever woken up…..” question. If it was, the sausage would outlast my answer. “They threw my husband away.” That was a first, as an opening gambit at a BBQ. The novelty of the introduction was in itself, disconcerting, irrespective of the images it conjured. “He had a brain tumour. So they just threw him away.” I gazed thoughtfully down into the heart of my sausage/bap/onion combo and wished it was a bottle of Gin. “They never told us that he could have been a donor. Never asked us. Just dumped him in a hospice and waited for him to die.” I tried to formulate an opening line through the beer, wine and nuts, still staring at my onions but missed my slot in the discussion. “Me and my kids don’t get to go to any services of thanksgiving. Have him remembered for saving someone’s life.” “Just threw him away.” “Why didn’t they ask me?” I sort of knew the medical answer to that conundrum, but from the other side, that reasoning didn’t stand up to scrutiny. I would have to find answers for us both.

On September 16th 2018 my medical career ended. It wasn’t that I made a terrible mistake with a patient’s care or falsified my tax return. I hadn’t suffered an epiphany of self-doubt in the face of the tragedy and sadness that so often colours our lives as doctors. I wouldn’t even say that I had found the working pressures and expectations too onerous to bear any more, growing accustomed as we all must, to a professional life of clinical crises and administrative torment. In fact I’d probably come to take my charmed life in Western Australia for granted having largely figured out how the patients, the people and the politics stuff really worked. I think that I felt that I was at the peak of my powers, widely qualified across medicine, critical care and anaesthesia, working both publicly and privately. As the State’s leader of DonateLife, donor numbers had almost tripled in 6 years and no-one was more surprised than me that I was the longest-ever serving Medical Director. Unfortunately it turns out that pride really does comes before a fall.  To be precise, on a damp chilly morning, descending the steep and slippery road into Apollo Bay, I cycled head-on into a street sign at 65 kmh. I don’t remember any of the bad stuff, the broken neck and shattered jaw, the partial scalping and the torn off ear, the crushed chest and multiple lumbar fractures. I missed the worst of the anxiety and pain, ventilated and restrained for a week whilst my family held a vigil at my bedside. I also missed the fear and the distress, the sleepless nights and the over-the-phone consents for stabilising trauma surgery that I inflicted upon them. Once I finally awoke in ICU many days later, my wonderfully gentle wife repeatedly had to explain to me that I was a patient and not the on-call consultant. Even after I had escaped the critical care and trauma wards, my befuddled brain still defaulted to familiar behaviours, wandering around the rehab hospital TV room in my pyjamas, examining other’s wounds and drip sites on my daily “ward round”. Afterwards, mentally exhausted, I would then fall asleep watching another Netflix series that I wouldn’t remember. In time honoured medical tradition, I even tried to cheat on my cognitive assessments by plotting with my dear brain-tumour roommate to memorise the questions that he was asked. Sadly I couldn’t remember any of his prepared answers and failed miserably. It’s a long journey back to medical expertise when you can only recite 2 of a list of 15 words that you’re meant to remember. Having returned from Melbourne 6 weeks after the crash, rehabilitation at Fiona Stanley was confronting and upsetting. The fight to recover drove a bewildering mix of emotions. I seemed to be the only one in clinic not in a wheelchair and for that I felt terrible guilt and perverse regret. I was ashamed because I even had to make up stories for each of my amazing carers, just to allow me to recall their names. Michelle (‘two-little-legs-runner’) the OT cared for me with such patience and kindness. (‘Whiffy’) Miffy at the state head injury unit was all optimism and empathy in the face of my stream of tangential consciousness and bitter rage. Times had now changed. I was suddenly afraid of uncertainty, wary of my explosive, irrational anger and reckless nature. The diffuse axonal injuries had left my personality peppered with multiple micro-haemorrhagic holes and through them the irrationality could uncontrollably flow out. I would cry repeatedly during our hours together and each would sit quietly and wait for the emotional squalls to pass. In between tear-showers, I would rage and laugh, wandering without embarrassment or insight across a whole range of unrelated personal topics. My rehab consultant told me bluntly, when we first met unscheduled in a corridor, that she didn’t know if I would ever work again. I was so angry and upset, having fought irrationally hard with only that single outcome in mind, that it wasn’t until the rush-hour train journey home that I calmed down enough to blub embarrassingly once more. How could any of the rehab team know whether I was fit to practice? Who even knew what us gassers did? “Exhaustive knowledge of human physiology?” “Precise dosing of dangerous and complicated drugs?” “Hours of intense concentration?” All that sounded very challenging but nothing like what I did as a senior clinician. It was only as the time came closer to reboot my expertly crafted 80’s operating theatre playlists that the reality began to dawn. Physically, my ‘Jeff Bridges’ beard now hid the metalwork in my chin and only the subtle neck and hand scars betrayed the plates and screws holding my head and hands on. I looked pretty normal, long hair and all. As D-day approached, through repeated sleepless nights, I was forced to admit to myself that I was afraid of the huge responsibility that us anaesthetists bear and realised how often I would have to hide my own anxieties to facilitate others doing their jobs. Anaesthetists lot is not to take centre stage but to quietly keep everything in order. Early on in our relationship, I tried to tell my brilliant private surgical partner of my concerns for a particular patient. “Sorry Bruce” he interrupted “I don’t want you to take this the wrong way but I’m not really interested. You know what you’re doing. I’ll just wait until you’re ready.” His dismissal of my concerns had me livid for a moment and then just as quickly very flattered and emboldened by his trust in me. We were a great team for that very reason, that and a shared love of beer and oysters. Naturally it can be daunting to be a leader and us anaesthetists often have to step up. We are relied upon, trusted with command of the ship when the storm breaks, deliberately calm and precise. For all the time that I had fought to return to work, I had subconsciously belittled my role. I had focused upon the ease that 25 years of experience and hard graft had afforded me. “I’m only an Anaesthetist” I used to dismissively say. On reflection that was true, in the same way that DonateLife’s extraordinary donor co-ordinators are “only” administrators, mere facilitators. Of course the reality is that both groups are only noticed when things go wrong, when fault needs to be attributed. That is when we have to stand up and lead. Otherwise we just sit quietly, “drinking coffee”, “playing sudoku”, crediting others with the successes and the lives saved. “The greatest ally of the physician is time” my first medical consultant used to recite before each ward round. I remind myself of that incantation when the black dog tries to interrupt my morning ocean swim. I won’t ever anaesthetise again and that is hard to accept. I am acutely conscious that I am much luckier than other trauma victims and for that I quietly rejoice. I think that I’m finally done trying to remember what happened yesterday. I’m certain that today and tomorrow are much more important. Dr Bruce Powell MBBS MRCP FRCA FANZCA